He took me to see Nick Cave. Throughout the day, I’d receive texts exclaiming how much fun we were going to have, how excited he was for the show, how excited he was to see me. I was relieved he was in such high spirits for once. In turn, I was in a great mood and looking forward to our date.
As with most times seeing him, I spent hours making sure I looked my most perfect. Manicure, pedicure, groomed and tan, hair perfectly styled, perfectly soft dark smoky eye with a matte lip, the right perfume, the right accessories, and the perfect plunging black lace dress with knee-high boots. I exhausted myself to always be nothing short of perfect for him. Rarely did I feel he would accept the human side of me.
He picked me up on time, but seemed stressed. I asked if everything was okay. He dropped his phone and shattered its screen earlier. He said several of his friends were trying to reach him as they were attending the show as well. I suggested we meet them for a drink since we had time. Or find them since it was general admission. He could use my phone. He preferred to have a night for just us. Once in the venue, we got drinks and found our spot on the main floor. He still seemed on edge, frequently looking around. I kept asking if everything was okay because he didn’t seem okay. I suggested again we locate his friends.
He snapped. He went on a rant about not wanting drama. He didn’t want it getting back to “the ex” he was on a date. I didn’t understand his logic because they had been broken up for over a year. I quietly told him how unhappy it made me he was putting her feelings before mine. But as with other times, he got loud and made a scene. We were in a crowd without much room and everyone near us must have witnessed the argument. He explained that out of everyone in the world, he chose to bring me to the concert. He chooses me. No one else. But the next day was “the ex’s” co-ed/friend baby shower and he didn’t want it upsetting her because she’s had a difficult pregnancy. His friends who were at the concert are also friends with “the ex”. I was furious. I told him I did not give a fuck about her feelings. Fuck her. I asked him if he was the father because I could not comprehend why he would not only be attending, but how could he be invited if it was known he cheated on her. My body language screamed, do not touch me, but he made attempts to hug me from behind. Wrapping his arms around me and rubbing my legs and ass. Trying to get me to kiss him. I was repulsed. I remained frozen. The show was amazing, but I left to get myself another drink and spent part of it alone in the lobby. He never came to look for me or use his jacked phone to reach me.
Things settled, but I was still upset. I was so incredibly hurt. He dropped me off at home where I said I cannot continue to be in the relationship if he is always putting her before me, always hiding me like a dirty secret. He started yelling. I yelled back and kicked him out of my house. I went upstairs where a few minutes later he was back at my front door. Knocking and asking to talk. I opened the door where he got loud again. I told him to leave or I was calling the cops. He left.
Later I would pay for that comment when he turned the tables – threatening to call the cops on me when I was at his home, questioning him on things that didn’t make sense.
He was insulted I would make such a threat. He was outraged by how horribly I treated him. He was in such a great mood and looking forward to a nice evening, but I ruined yet another date. I was also berated for my “lack of empathy” towards a woman, his “good friend” [technically she was his ex-girlfriend], facing a risky pregnancy.